I took the leap…
I accepted The Universe’s gift with open hands. I am thankful, grateful, flattered, and exhausted.
It was fantastic to be offered the opportunity for a new career. To have someone recognize my talents, expertise that has been honed over the last 30 years, it was unbelievably incredible feeling.
So, I gathered up all the courage that I had. What was it about only 20 seconds of courage?
“You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it.” Benjamin Mee, We Bought a Zoo.
Well, this was an anxiety ridden 2 weeks of repetitive 20 second lengths of time. Over and over and over again.
I don’t like change and although I have been working 7 day weeks, for longer than I can remember, this was going to be a big change. Not only for me, but for others that were counting on me. For others that appreciated what I brought to the table within their business.
Not only do I dislike change, I hate hurting or disappointing people. And this was guaranteed to bring about both.
Although I was incredibly nauseous…
I did it. I turned in my notice to all of my employers. For all five of the positions that I fill. I also hate saying good-bye. I miss my lunch shift crew, we had many Magical Monday’s and Tremendous Tuesday’s together.
I will miss prepping for caterings, I spent almost 5 years with the crew at Splendid Fare, I will miss the fun and the laughs-immensely.
Two of the companies I work for, the proprietors are my friends. I realize that I am putting undue pressure on them to find qualified help, and I empathize.
The biggest reasons for the change…
I will be taking each and every talent that I have to one position. Things that I have picked up here and there all get to work together, to finally become a team.
The office is closer to home. Yes, I said office!! I have a big girl desk now!
Since part of my job is done at my desk, I believe my health will benefit. No more 15 hour shifts on my feet, or 600 garbage bags to haul around, and I will not be vacuuming, dusting and mopping 30,000+ square feet of offices.
I no longer have to work nights or Sundays.
I get to help people plan their catered events, help plan decorations for birthday, graduation and wedding cakes! How fun is that!!!
While there are MANY benefits…
I am burning the candle at both ends.
I gave my employers a two-week notice and I am trying to wrap up projects that I was working on, finish the book-work for one employer, schedule my new job around the weddings that I had planned for the old employer-I am not going to walk out on a bride before her wedding day.
Although I am only one week into my notice, my new employer has me coming in to train for my new position.
I accepted the opportunity so that I could end the cycle of 5 jobs and never a day off. Now I have just added to the mess.
Oh but it is a glorious mess though.
Obviously, this blog is also reflecting the change and the overload. I just wanted to stop by, let you know that I am still here, but…
Now it is time to take a hot bath and prepare once again for the madness that will ensue when the alarm clock begins ringing.